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so im back again after so long. i kno i kno im so not being faithful to vox. heehee. sorry vox. but now im back again huh. n im back with more bitching. wahaha. n b warned. im vulgar.

n u so kno who im gona bitch about. HERNI. oh yesss its about d bitch of all bitches, HERNI. ha..

no im not sorry for calling u a bitch cuz u deserve it. its ok, im reminding u of my previous blogs about u. so anyway. u call us bitches or prolly one of us bitches juz cuz we cant get over u, but seriously, wat about u? im sure now and den u'll be checking on ratna's or prolly my vox blog. or if not u'l b on all of our friendsters' profiles, anonymously. its alwiz anonymously cuz y? cuz u juz dun have d GUTS to show urself to us. i dun tink i need to remind anyone about u being confronted at doby ghaut station. but since ive mentioned it, im gona lay it down here.

ow yes.. i stil remember ur now close fren, izah, calling one of ur frens who u suddenly denied as a fren, a bitch, juz cuz she refused to pay d fish n co meal which u girls ordered based on ur own preference, w/o even askn d birthday girl wat she exactly wanted. oh n mind u, d girl u called a bitch did buy d birthday girl a present, so i myself dun c any reason y she had to pay for a meal u all ordered. so newaez.. u girls were already arguing n i saw u all walked all d way to d back of doby ghaut station. tats wher u were confronted. n of cuz u were left alone by izah. wat a good fren. she din even stand up for u. n its amusing u girls r good frens. ha.. so yea u were left standing on ur own shit alone n all u could say was "fuck off.. fuck off.. u all made alot of mistakes to me already.." im like WAT D FUCK??? we? mistakes? to u? HA!! ur absolutely wrong u big fuckn fat bitch.

i wonder how u were feeling, standing der at one side all by ur side. ur lucky we girls r not from any gang. but gang or no gang, ur attitude n U alone can create angst in anyone who knows ur real bloody selfish self. while ur standing der, im sure u were freakn scared, n deep down u muz b crying for ur momma. or of cuz, back den, for heiqal, who, most definitely, wil neva come to ur rescue. ur lucky my legs din move an inch towards ur fat self. i wun beat u up, dun worry. all i'l do is pull ur tudung.. hows tat? im giving u chance bitch, like how ive alwiz given u chances.

so back to d story. of cuz, u'l neva have GUTS as fat as urself. cuz if u do, i'd already have stopped talkn about u. of cuz i can stop talkn about u, who says i cant? ur juz a tiny winy crap in my life. but bcuz Ur d one who cant let us go, tats y we'r stil around u. i gues ur stil d same stupid ol crappy bitch. oh yea, i forgot.. MASTER BITCH. ha.. it was hilarious u were like "if u wana learn.. learn from d master.." of cuz ur implying to urself. stupid crap.

now now.. dun go on telling ur frens to read wiceva blogs we wrote bout u. they have other things to do n i dun think theyr involved in tis so yea, screw off. oh n tell ur fren, nuraini to remove my face from her top list on friendster, BECAUSE we both dun talk to each other. if its for ur own convenience to check on my profile, den seriously remove. im sure she has other good frens she wana put on her list. oh yes all was anonymously. ur doing d same too.. so wat?

oh i cant help it.. like i said, no matter how hard u try to look good, U WIL NEVA LOOK GOOD bitch. curled ur hair huh? prolly wasn even curls.. juz waves huh? ugly. ha.. n so contradicting now tat ur single, u open up ur profile n let evryone view d ugly u. of cuz, of cuz.. ders no more.. "its only for heiqal". ha.. poor thing. see.. told u already.. u tried to b d so called 'nice' person n tried to break me up n wandi, but look at how miserable u r. of cuz ur miserable everyday, dun lie to ur already lying self. liar. well heiqal deserves much much better woman den u. ur no match for heiqal. u whine evryday, u cry like nobody's business. im sure u'l stil cry like fuck now n den. fuck u look fuckn ugly wen u cry. yux. but wateva. im glad heiqal dumped u.

well... until u dun feel sorry n realise ur mistakes, ur life's gona b d way it is. no matter how hard u party n try to b happy, kno tat deep down inside u ur juz empty.

til d next time, BITCH.

i kno its a bit too late but wth HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha yes! im 25 years old on THE most special date n definitely very unique tis year on 20082008 or 20 August 2008. finali ive reached d 1/4 of a century.. lol.

so anyhoo.. ive got pics to upload so im gona tell wat happened on my bDay.

i muz say 20082008 was definitely a special day for me cuz its been awhile i spent long quality time w my babyboy. was simple but wat matters most is all his time was mine! MUAHAHA. n yessss i definitely w/o a single doubt enjoyed my time w him last wednesday. ooh gues wat he got me a bag from zara! juz in time wen i do not hv a proper bag to work. heehee.

so ok back to bDay.. we went to sentosa actuali.. haha yes yes very typical but so wat.. at least i din spend my bDay at a coffeeshop drinkn kopi.. LOL.. so anyhoo wat excited me was wandi chose to bring me up d cable car to sentosa! haha.. it was my 1st time so i was a little scared but once we lifted off it was ok.. n wandi was w me so i din care much after tat. we left from harbourfront to mount faber n den back to hfc n den off to sentosa. d scene from up above was soo nice i din realise i was taking so many pics of hfc n vivo city n d caribbean..lol..

finali wen we were at sentosa we headed to siloso beach. surprisingly der were alot of indian n ang moh tourists so we decided to land sumwher near cafe del mar. so suntanning we were. i kno it sounds so simple n typical but seriously i dun reli care cuz like i sd wandi was w me. he took d day off juz 2 b w me, not wait til weekend arrives den spend d bDay juz like tat. wasted. uh uh. i was already enjoying myself so i reli dun care. LOL. (ok hani..)

so after tryina get ourselves tanned (wic we din reli turn out very tanned like how we want to) we headed to d glasshouse to have dinner at fish n co! heehee. was reli hungry since we din eat anythn at sentosa. ooh! we got back to hfc by cable car again! haha.. (1st time naik cable car kan so muz understand abit lol). at fish n co i had plattre for one n wandi ate fish n chips. of cuz ders d complimentary bDay ice cream (vanilla ice cream actuali) n 10% off d bill! helen (i tink d name of d manager who greeted us) asked if it was ok if d fish n co team celebrated by singing a bDay song but i rejected d idea since der was onli wandi n i so yeap we ended w d ice cream instead.

n after filling our stomachs it was more quality time spending b4 we went home.. so enjoy d pics from my album!

happy 70th monthsary love.

today is our 70 months together. how time flies so fast. 2 more months n we'll be 6 years. we've known each other since 1999, back while we were stil in poly, skipping classes n chilling at d eva famous mCd canteen.

all i gotta say is all my heart goes out for u babylove. we've been thru ups n downs, been thru too much together n u've been der for me all d time. i make mistakes again n again n yet u keep ur patience intact n u forgive me again n again. many times i tried to push u out of my life but tat many times u told me ur gona stay in my life no matter wat happens. i respect u so much for all d patience u hv for me. probably ive complained so much but nonetheless u listened with all ears n smiled away. arguing is much like discussing n happens everyday yet u never run away but instead u hug me n tell me u'd rather be ard to listen to me than not being able to hear my voice.

i may have known alot of men in all of my 25 years of living, but i have to admit i have never met anyone like u, so strong n very patient. sumtimes u choose not to listen but i kno deep inside u try to make me happy d most possible way ever. u juz dun complain, cuz to u im d most perfect woman in ur life. how lucky i m to hv u as my man.

words wil neva b enuf to describe how i feel for u. i'l b a better gf each day. n a fiancee. n a wife. n a mother to ur children. n yes ive made up my mind. U is all i need. cant c me with any1 else. cant c me end up w any1 else. well i gues ive to give abang anuar up. hee. oh well i kno i kno anuar zain wldn even wana look at me. *rolls eyes* but wat d heck...

i love u haswandi

ha.. bitch looks fuckn ugly wearing tat dress which looks like she got it from tekka.. :)

seriously im reli reli bored rite now. ive done wat im supposed to do n im very sleepy. i cant wait for 6.. or rather 6.15pm to arrive. later im mtg my darling yum yum to watch the strangers at 7.30pm at lido. hope its a good movie. i see there are sum frightening scenes in d movie. hope its not d kinda movie wic only makes u jump on ur seat.. i mean d 'terkejot2' type like wen u watch 'jangan pandang belakang'. heehee. oh n i cant stand wen d ladies start to scream at every frightening scene. very irritating u kno.

newaez now tat i remember, wednesday wil b d nite for Anugerah Band! if only i cld get dem tix. wld reli love to watch dem live. d band im supporting? definitely X-TECH baby!!! i mean look at dem perform! very.. semangat u kno.. i mean very lively! yea! lively. n i love how d drummer performed as well. vocalist? got no words to describe how good his performance is. they better win. im sure they wil!

cant wait for sat n sun nites either.. tats wen i get to watch my mio tv.. or rather eros bollywood. i b watchn dem hindi movies 1 after d other. cant get enuf. current fav: heyy babyy. akshay kumar, ritesh deshmukh n fardeen khan.. yummy! not forgettn d lil Johaina. she's d star in d movie.. cuteness! n i so love ritesh deshmukh! muahaha.. oh n rahul bose in pyaar ke side effects. theyr juz soooo.. delicious! muahahaa.. ok ok enuf hAni. oh watch 'masti' too. nice movie. ritesh is in it too! heehee.

ahhh its 6 now. tat means its toilet time!!! haha. oh here's a pic of heyy babyy poster:

Heyybaby

btw ladies dun forget to surf to beitzlovelies.multiply.com. we've added new bags der! ok til den!!

adios muchOs nAchOs!!!

oiKs bAm-Z!!! hAppy bDay!!!!!! dun stop lookn 4 d poonaniee!!! muahahahahAhahahaha

all i gotta say is...

sincere friends will stay around sincere friends when they do not have bad intentions in their hearts.

bad friends will only lose out in the end. when they have hearts as black as a crow, sooner or later, they will suffer.

and no other persons can bring me down.

only Allah can take my life away.

and as of now.. im lookn forward to my future.. im gona get engaged insyAllah by d end of d year. at least we're all moving on with our lives. sum pple dont. they juz don't but remain as victims n expect sympathy from d rest. wateva.

im juz happy. can?

so we had d JCI fair earlier n we had to take care of our own booth. our theme was GLD - Governance, Leadership and Direction. tis JCI is an important accreditation for SGH to renew d cert or sumn like tat. tis fair tat we had was to educate d staffs abt JCI. n me n a colleague were in charge of creating a simple yet fun game for d booth.

we decided w monopoly style initially but after discussing w d whole team, we chged it to 'tikam2' style. participants had to throw tis token on our self-made game board n wen it lands on 'G', 'L' or 'D', they had to ans questions on those topics.

we started off few days back for d preparation. as alwiz, it was a last min thingy wher we were informed late n had to bust our ass off for all d preparation. questions for d game to b asked to participants came in late so we started w d creation of d gameboard itself. so yesterday we had managed to cut out d papers to b printed on d board. n lunchtime came. so lunch is lunch. ur entitled to lunch for u to eat. so i told d colleague tat she gotta wait for me to finish d board. n i did stress tat we gotta do tis 2getha. so me n suba went for lunch, met up w ratna n ate at lil india.

as usual lunch wld take up to 2 hrs n yes tis is normal cuz evry1 seems to do it too. so wen we came back to d office d 2 colleagues were already at our board game n they gave me tis bloody look saying "oh finali shes back.." i sumhow had d feeling they muz've been talkn abt me. so being d ignorant me (well sumtimes) i went on n did wat i had to do w d game. evrythn went normal until d next morning.

so wat made me mad was wen i got back in office d next morning i heard stories tat those 2 colleagues did reli talk behind my back. she was going like "aiyah here got so much work n noraini's stil not back yet. take lunch so long.. more den 1 hour already.." wen i heard tat.. damn my heart thudded so hard i could turn into a female hulk. who like it wen sum1 talked behind their back? i mean excuse me lady who d hell ur tryina mess w? like u guys dun take 2 hrs of lunch. it was onli on tat day y'all came back earlier den us. n its not like i didnt do anythn rite?? i bloody did everythn i cld juz 4 d sake of my fuckn department n wasn even appreciated but wat d heck i didn want any1 2 say bad abt my department. did i even complain wen u drew ur lines crooked? all i did was to do evrythn back w a smile n i didn even complain shit abt u! damn.. evrytime i do sumn good tis is wat i alwiz get.. no appreciation no nuthn juz hypocrites playing bhind me.

n board game aside.. i prepared d questions on paper so all d pple in d dept can ask qns to d participants.. i prepared d roster as to who's gona mend d booth at wat time.. n i did a helluva stuff until 10pm w/o complaining.. cuz its all for d sake of d dept.. but wat i got? pple askn "oh y didn u type in d question numbers on d cards too?" y question wen its all done?? y didn u all bring up during d bloody briefing??? wtf? n wen u asked tat qn y did u all hafta approach my team instead of coming to me directly? n den sumtimes conversing in mandarin like i dun understand. damn these pple. so wen i heard i told them off in a quite raised voice until they thought i was mad at my own team. went up to d secretary cuz shes d other person i can talk to comfortably. so while talkn tat hypocrite had to come up to me quite a few times as i cld c she was guilty-conscious. but wat i didn understand was y did u hafta put words in my mouth n assume i was mad at my own team? she was like patting my back tryina comfort me n sd sumn like "oh dun worry i kno eunice is like tat.. i kno ur mad at her but juz be patient.." excuse me again.. who's talkn abt eunice??? ur d bloody hypocrite here n we were talkn abt u. i wasn even mad at eunice n i kno her style. i was mad at u alicia. yes U. i hated it tat u hafta bring ur big mouth evrywher n spread false stories. yea i kno definitely u wldve gone to eunice n told her i was mad at her. but ur absolutely wrong. shame on u!

n seriously u didn hafta come up to me a couple of times while i was talkn to d secretary n pretended to ask qns cuz i kno ur style too. i kno u wanted to listen wat we were talkn abt cuz tats simply u. kPo. kaypoh. bzbody. now i dun need u to come up to me unless its abt work.

few days back while wrapping up prizes for d game i was also taken aback by d big boss comments. or rather d way she commented. she was like "y u all wasting time wrapping? we're dying here so ders no need to do all tat.." respect??? whers it at? prolly i aint an exec like most of ur staff but i do deserve sum respect too. im afterall a human. n i cldn take it wen during sopm mtg she didn even thank me or ok.. alicia for all d hardwork we've put in. she onli thanked d ladies who came up w qns.. wat d hell? i got nuthn against them ladies but seriously? coming up w questions wic didn reli relate to our theme whole-ly as compared to us CREATING d game, cutting, printing, packing, wrapping n all those physical work??? not even a thanks. onli until evening we got an email saying thanks from her. a lil late dun u tink?

sigh.. most of d time i dun feel appreciated workn, busting off (my balls if i have lol).. i dun like to make enemies but i simply cant stand them pple. juz cant understand them. very typical pple. not fun at all. but wateva.. im ok now.. its onli at work so wat. juz dun come up to me n pretend to b all nice. i hate fake pple.

booooo.

oh btw herni.. ur stupid. very stupid. :) gettn jealous juz cuz im frens w ratna. u kno wat? i wish i'd have known ratna way b4 i kno u. but its ok. u dun hv gd frens while i do. n no no one is taking ur frens away. its u who do not kno how 2 appreciate frens. :) so tats y ur stupid. poor ting. n stop ur pretense cuz we aaaaall kno how sad ur life is w heiqal. hv u all broken up yet? not yet? breakup soon yea. cant wait for d happy news. :) oh wen u get new frens remember not to tell them how pathetic u r u hafta ask pple how 2 seduce ur own bf. its very personal so pple dun wana kno details of ur sex act. or prolly ur pretending uve eva made love. knowing tat u hafta learn how 2 seduce ur own bf n not knowing wats orgasm.. juz shows heiqal isnt even turned on by u. ha.. ok herni d main ting is ur stupid. :)

oh tis is not cyber bully. herni's a girl w a messed up mind she goes ard telling bad tings abt her own frens n lying alot abt them. n she knows she's in d wrong but she neva admits them but instead she expects others to apologise to her. to her soon to b frens i advise u get close to her n u'l kno soon wat im talkn abt. if ur as cool as me n my gfs who used to b herni's frens, u'l definitely leave her n kno shes juz a waste of time. so yea. :) have a gd day y'all cuz i definitely am having mine.

adios muchos.

yea.. bashed up.. verbally tho..

haha.. tats wat happened at dhoby ghaut on the evening of tuesday. 2 pathetic stupid bitches being confronted n yet they walked off w/o even explaining Y they lied n lied n lied abt their own frens. 1 stupid skinny slut walked off w her hands shielding like as if shes sum fuckn celebrity n d other fat n ugly biatch cowardly left d scene in a hurry. bodoh!

next time.. no ders no more next time already.. it is already time u both watch ur smelly mouth n stop talkn bad abt others! freaks! ha.. see.. wat i sd b4 is already happening.. 1 by 1 ur frens r leaving u.. all cuz of ur foul dirty mouth.. n ur bf's not ard to console u.. ha.. even if he is ard i dun tink he bothers abt u anywayz.. dumb bitch.. talkn bad abt our bfs but ur own bf cant fuckn treat u better den ours. at least our bf says i love u to us every sec, unlike urs. n our bf spends on us w/o even us askn dem to, unlike urs. n at least! they wana hold us, hold our hands, unlike urs!! pathetic!!! so whose bf is better now huh??

yea yea tis all may sound like so fuckn childish but cuz u r 1, we'r answering u like 1! u fuckn dumb bitch. y blame others for wat they neva did wen ur actuali d 1 to b blamed?? u walked off saying we'r wrong but havent u got d guts to fuckn spat it on our faces??? its 5 against 2.. nah.. its 5 against 1 cuz tat freakn skinny bitch who pretended like she has a perfect slang n talkn so not clearly w her overlapping teeth is juz peanuts. yes.. ur juz like an extra character in a play.. so shut d fuck up.

n yes u both have once again unleashed d dragon in me. n puhlease. i'd rather hv u both reading tis to kno how pathetic n sad ur lives r. oh yea skinny bitch.. hv u found ur self respect yet? or u stil opening up ur gap to men at bars? freeloader.. *rolls eyes*

now dont let me or any of us see u at d streets.. u better..

i was going thru my fren's blog titles wen i saw 'a thousand uncertainties' wic asks readers abt the purpose of life and such, so here is my reply to him:

while given a life in this world, do we alwiz hv to ask why why why is it like this and like that? do we hv to keep on askn whats the purpose of life or living it itself? do we hv to give up suddenly wen we fail to do or achieve a certain sumn wen in actual fact if we reli tink and lay the pros and cons, it is actuali a simple matter wic we can overcome easily? do we hv to live in despair wen a certain problem lingers ard u but in truth there is a bright light waiting for u? hv we stopped awhile and thought that there are good and simple things in life that we can do to make ourselves happy? hv we told ourselves that wen we thought we've faced a bad problem, there are actuali worse problems than ours? hv we also told ourselves that in life, we either choose to lead a simple and happy life, or lead a miserable one? now do u ever tell urself that even tho this world might be juz a stage, each of us HAS our own purpose in living the life given. it is onli a matter of knowing how to manage it, the right way or otherwise.

u may say talkn and sayin is easy, but y linger too much in a problem wic wen thought carefully, can be managed and solved eventuali?

in life, the ONLI thing w/o a cure is death. thus, there are lots of 'certainties' out there waiting to be realised.

peace

so yea, i can say ive a positive mind wic assures me everyday things will work out in their best way if we hv faith.

sumtimes ive been taken in a wrong way in such that pple think im taking things lightly. theres this 1 case wen the childhood fren mentioned i take things lightly. this is due to a case im facing rite now wher my name is being used as a JOINT APPLICANT for an education loan wic does NOT benefit me at all. it was the cousin who wana study so much and cuz i think he's fam i thought i shld help him in such a way he'll chg to be a much better person. but mthly fees wasn paid thus bank warns abt legal actions n stuff. so to cut things short, i tell myself, this is somehow going to work. what i mean is i hv faith in me telling me that i kno ive found myself trouble involving in this, but i will not be in more trouble den it is now. n so the childhood fren sd as above.

the truth is its not that im taking things lightly, but im not a person who shows how stressed up life can be, and im not a person who knows how to stress myself up. i kno somehow a problem can be solved eventuali, no matter how hard it gets.

so der, a thousand 'certainties'. perhaps it is time we look at ourselves in a more positive way.

just some random fotos of us.. :)

oh n not 4gettn these xD

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